I dont like fundraising. There, I said it. I dont like asking people for money. I dont like the uncertainty, and if Im being extremely honest, I dont like the reliance on God and others it entails.
I've always been pretty independent. I've never really asked my parents for money, becasue I've had my own. I was eleven when I got my first job (babysitting at the steep rate of seven dollars an hour). So anytime I've wanted something since then, I bought it for myself. And if I had $12,000 you better believe I would pay for this trip myself.
But honestly it is a good thing I dont. It is a good thing that I have to fundraise. It casues me to rely on God, to trust Him. It allows me to watch Him show up for me in ways I wouldn't see otherwise. He is the one who decides if and when I get the money I need for the trip. While uncomfortable in ways, I find so much comfort knowing how much he cares for me, and how much he provides for me.
Then Jesus said to his disciples: "Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat; or about your body, what you will wear. For life is more than food, and the body more than clothes. Consider the ravens: they do not sow or reap, they have no storeroom or barn; yet God feeds them. And how much more valuable you are than birds! Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to your life? But seek first his kingdom and these things will be given to you as well. (Luke 12:22-25, 31 NIV)
So when I step out of my comfort zone, is where I can truly find comfort in The Lord. its a good thing, stepping out of your comfort zone. I know I will be doing it a lot in the coming year!
